For My Husband

Today we have been married for two years.  

Today is more special to me than any other day.  

Two years ago on August 2nd, I vowed to spend my life with my best friend through all stages of life.  I vowed to love him no matter what.  

I do.

I love him even though he walks like an elephant.  I love him even though he doesn't cook eggs the way I like.  I love him when he makes a 3 minute song into a 15 minute song (life of being married to a musician).  I love him even though we fight.  I love him even when it's hard.  I'm not saying these last two years were horrible - far from it.  I'm also not saying that these last two years have been easy.  I'm not saying that loving someone else through what we have been through is easy.  Love isn't easy.  It's not in human nature to love unconditionally.  

But he is worth it.  

What's even more: he vowed the same to me. We didn't just say words on this day.  We both agreed to be a team.  He never tries to win an argument.  I never try to win an argument.  We never want the other person to lose.  When I stop and really think about what we said on our wedding day, or our prayer before we saw each other at the alter, I am moved.  To know love like this is beautiful.  To be loved by another the way my husband loves me leaves me speechless.  He does more for me than I deserve.  He loves me - and that, to me, is amazing.  Struggling with depression, the concept of being loved has always been hard to grasp.  Since knowing my husband, I have felt so much love.  I have been so encouraged by him.  He will always support me in any way he can, and it's the most comforting thing I know.  

That is what marriage is about.  It's not about what the films and novels make it out to be.  Marriage is team work.  Marriage is knowing how to love and how to be love.  Marriage is not easy, but when you have the right teammate, all the valleys and mountains are worth it.  

Holden.  I love you.  I don't know what this year has in store.  I don't know what tomorrow will look like.  What I do know is that life looks pretty good when I look at you.